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Something Short & Sweet.. Be Mindful

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“And here you are living despite it all.” – Rupi Kaur 

Sometimes I feel it is bad that I anticipate to be hurt. It is just one point in my life or another when I found myself “comfortable” at a certain point, I ended up getting hurt. Left. Broken. So, now I just wait for the hurt to come. So, as I wait for the hurt to come, I cannot enjoy the happiness. And that is no way to live.

You are suppose to take the pain as it comes. Feel it. Heal through it. Let it go. What God wants to go through, He will bring you through. I think that the feelings of doubt, uncertainty, and confusion come as a way to distract me from what I have gotten myself through and what I have worked so hard to get away from. My past is my past for a reason and I know whatever I go through, I will always get through.

I survived so much when I thought I would not, I will survive what life brings to me next. And so you will too.

xoxo

Queen Kort

Take a Look In The Mirror & Feel Blessed…

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“How cool is it that the same God that created mountains, oceans, and galaxies looked at you and thought the world needed one of you too.” – Unknown

I guess sometimes in life, we forget who we are. We forget that God created us all individually because He created a purpose for each and every one of us. We forget that we are special. That we are unique. And specially made. God only made one of us with our heart, with our mind, with our own features. We are our own masterpiece.

Yet, we let people dictate the way that we see ourselves? Why is that?

Honestly, I use to let people’s actions control how I felt about myself. Because when I was treated poorly and I treated them in the most kindest of ways, I felt poor. I felt low. I let people make me feel unloved. I thought to be loved, people had to love me and appreciate me. I thought I was always suppose to get treated how I treated others. But, sometimes that is simply not the case.

What I had to realize was that people who fail to love properly may never have been taught how to give a healthy love, they do not love themselves, or they do not know God. Not how they should. Maybe all three.

I had to stop placing my happiness into others. I had to find my own happiness within myself and within knowing and learning God. The more I grow to love God, the more I grow to love and accept myself.

“Oh yes, you shaped me first inside, then out; you formed me in my mother’s womb.
I thank you, High God—you’re breathtaking!
Body and soul, I am marvelously made!
I worship in adoration—what a creation! You know me inside and out, you know every bone in my body; You know exactly how I was made, bit by bit, how I was sculpted from nothing into something. Like an open book, you watched me grow from conception to birth; all the stages of my life were spread out before you, The days of my life all prepared before I’d even lived one day.” Psalms 13-16

The only opinions that which matters to me now are God and my own. I no longer look to people for validation or acceptance. I do not let the opinions of others bring me down, crave, desire to be liked, loved, or wanted. God loves me enough and no matter how much I am flawed, His love will always remain the same.

I am and you are worthy of all love. Especially the love that makes you laugh until your stomach hurts, the love that makes you feel like you are going to moon, and the love that is given effortlessly and naturally.

God makes no mistakes. Honestly, I would wonder why I had certain features that I did. Why my nose was a certain size, why were my eyes the shape they are, why did my eyesbrows have to be bushy. However, these are specific features that make me, ME. I realized that I am marvelously made because God sculpted me into the way that I am now as I formed in my mother’s stomach. He knew what I would look like before anyone else did and He fell in love with me, so why should I not be in love with myself?

Whether you are curvy, skinny, tall, short, etc.. You are so incredibly beautiful in God’s eyes. His eyes are what matter most. He did not make a mistake by creating you. You are on this earth for a reason, a purpose, a mission. So fall in love with yourself and seek what you are on this earth to fulfill.

Be happy with what you are given. Cherish yourself . Get to know yourself. Heavily invest into yourself. Celebrate yourself. Love yourself.

Xoxo

Queen Kort

If You Ever Have Feelings of Self-Doubt…

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“Sometimes I get so far into my head that I forget that anything else exist.” – Unknown

Have you ever just get lost into your thoughts and mind? To the point where you think one thought after the other and it causes you to overthink. Overthinking about how differently things could have been done and how the life that you have now could have been altered sightly if you had made different decisions? I get lost in my thoughts all of the time.

Personally, my overthinking causes self doubt, uncertainty, and feelings of inferiority to creep its way into my mind.

Today, my life, my relationship, and things that are beyond my control has been heavily on my mind. And I guess once I actually am thinking about something, the first thing humans intend to do subconsciously is think of all that possibly could go wrong. Instead of all what is right in our lives. Self-doubt and being pessimistic are the enemies of success. Living in fear before it has happened only will hinder myself more because what God already chooses to bring me toward, I will meet anyway. I will overcome it. I will grow closer to Him.

I might as well live in the moment now and live it to the fullest. Be thankful for what I have in my life at the moment because I must need it and I must have a lesson to learn from it.

Yes, it is okay and it is normal to overthink and get lost into your thoughts about what the future holds. It is normal to anticipate what life awaits for you. However, it is not normal to draw away in the present because you do not want pain in the future. Pain is apart of life. Pain is one of the keys to growth and self-improvement. Pain is something that we cannot run away from, no matter how much we wish to avoid it.

“Give your burdens to the Lord, and he will take care of you. He will not permit the godly to slip and fall.” Psalm 55:22

God already knows where we are meant to be and who we are meant to be with. At this time and place I am blessed and grateful to know that God has me right where he wants me to be. I feel that I am suppose to be around the people who are suppose to be in my life and around me. I and along with whoever may read this, should let go. Worry less. And enjoy the moments of life that we have now. Yesterday has gone and tomorrow has not come. What is the use of worrying about things that we cannot control?

Lord, just please grant me serenity, understanding, and tranquility over my soul as I climb the many mountains that life has to offer.

Xoxo

Queen Kort

The Beginning

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I am His child, I am the child of a King.

In this very moment, I am listening to “I Belong To You” by William McDowell. It is a gospel song that I am enjoying tremendously. These very lyrics describe the journey that I have walked until this very moment.

“I’ve been captured by a love I can’t explain. And now you have me forever changed. I’ve abandoned everything I’ve ever known. Now I surrender my life is not my own. I belong to you, I belong to you.” 

The love that I have grown to have for God has changed my life in many ways. There has been so many trials and tribulations that I have endured upon strengthening my relationship, which I intend on sharing in future posts. But, as for my introduction, I want to share how I feel surrendering myself to God saved my life and changed my outlook. It has gotten to the very point that I rarely recognize who I use to be five months ago. All because I truly believe that God isolated me from so many toxic things because the path that I was choosing to “create” for myself was not in my best interest at all. However, without my being aware, He took control of my life and began to place everything in my life that I always prayed for, but did not truly understand that those were the things that I needed.

When I look back on what God put me through, I am so grateful that I had Him to hold onto. Yes, I did quote “Never Would Have Made It” by Marvin Sapp, LOL! Nonetheless, those are words are true. I never thought I could have made it and reached this type of peace without God. As I still am learning to know Him, understanding that He mostly has control on my life, and it will always be in the best interest of myself because He shares an unconditional love for me.Since I am trying to wrap my head around these things and truly understand that someone of such an higher power will look over me, protect me, and guide me toward everything that I am meant to have, I have learned the love of myself has been the most important task to grasp.

After all, I am stuck with me forever… To be continued

xoxo

Queen Kort

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